Honestly, good luck. (Parts of) western occultism is steeped in antisemitism and built on demonization of jews and appropriation of judaism & jewish culture. Its super disheartening to see what basically amounts to ‘lies that got us killed’ revered as great and amazing works. Especially the “jewish magician” bullshit.

To quote Gershom Scholem on hermetic qabalah (via Ezra Rose): “[…] the activities of the French and English occultists contributed nothing and only served to create considerable confusion between the teachings of the Kabbalah and own totally unrelated inventions, such as the alleged kabbalistic origins of the Tarot-cards. To this category of supreme charlatanism belong the many and widely read books of Eliphas Levi (actually Alphonse Louis Constant; 1810-1875), Papus (Gérard Encausse; 1868-1916), and Frater Perdurabo (Aleister Crowley; 1875-1946), all of whom had an infinitesimal knowledge of Kabbalah that did not prevent them from drawing freely on their imaginations instead.”