I’m hoping she’ll eventually come around. In the meantime though, I’m getting to try and figure out how to get on my feet long enough to move out.

Alright, thanks for the info.

Aside from being a bullpup and the clumsiness of trying to load two independent tube mags, what’s wrong with it? I’m not expecting to storm a fortified position; I’m only expecting to use it for self-defense and I highly doubt I’d need to go through both mags in such a situation (if so then I’d probably be fucked either way) so reloading shouldn’t be a problem. Bullpup is bullpup *shrug*. The other option is some form of semi-auto shotgun like a Saiga-12 that I can buy a drum mag for.

I’m not really interested in a rifle or pistol. Not really interested in something that can penetrate multiple walls and potentially end up in my neighbor’s neighbor’s wall. If I end up actually getting organized with a group then that’d change, but my modus operandi right now is to put my head down until I’m in a more secure environment; which means basically a shotgun because that seems like the ideal self-defense weapon for a home environment.

I love that song… It’s just so sad. The kid wants to spend time with his dad but can’t because his dad’s always busy, and then the dad wants to spend time with his kid but can’t because his child’s all grown up and is busy now.

Oh yeah, the game is short so I highly recommend 100% it. I think I took 6ish hours to play the entire thing, and I think I missed a side quest. But yeah, the game is basically “be gay, do crimes: the game”.

Helped my dad wrap a box in about an inch of duct tape (which was then gift wrapped) for a cousin’s Christmas present. The box was full of packing peanuts and had a false bottom with a gift card underneath. At no point had we stopped to consider whether or not it could be opened again (it took a long time to get it open lol).

Yes, but indie games helped fix that. Dunno how deep you’ve gotten into indie games, but here’s a list of them to try:

Cruelty Squad (it is unironically one of the best games I’ve ever played. Give it a chance, it’ll grow on you)

Balatro

Buckshot Roulette

WEBFISHING

Bomb Rush Cyberfunk (++if you enjoyed Jet Set Radio (Future))

Abiotic Factor

Lethal Company (I personally wasn’t a fan, but I can see the appeal; I would be more into it if there was more random junk to pick up)

Hypnospace Outlaw

Factorio (just released an expansion! Also don’t wait for sales, you’ll be waiting forever)

Snufkin: Melody of Moominvalley (edit: forgot to mention that this is basically “be gay, do crimes: the game”. It’s short so I highly recommend 100% it, but it’s also good).

Hylics 1 & 2

The Long Drive (looks like YouTube bait, and it kinda is, but it’s also the best driving game I’ve ever seen. Literally you, a car and 5000km of road. Any engine can go into any vehicle, so yes, you can put a bus engine on a moped. I love it. There haven’t been any big updates lately though because the dev is rewriting the game to fix spaghetti code).

QT (cutesy PT parody that’s all about secret hunting. Also has two extra levels with more secrets. It’s kinda like i-spy but in first-person 3d)

Voices of the Void (I adore this game, it’s a sci-fi pseudo-horror game styled after some weird mix of gmod and Half-Life. The premise is that you’re a researcher who’s been shipped off to a radio telescope array, alone. Your goal is to search the sky for signals and learn more about the cosmos. It takes itself just seriously enough and has lots of secrets and surprises to find.)

Thanks. It wasn’t the reaction I was expecting, kinda the opposite. My dad’s the one who had sisters and only nieces on his side of the family, so I was expecting him to be the one with hang-ups about it. Nope, it was my mom. What I was hoping for was support for a little while longer until I felt like I could live on my own, but it sounds like that’s not gonna happen. My biggest frustration is not coming out sooner tbh. Woulda given me more time to make plans and meant that maybe I could have skipped years of feeling like a lazy, freeloading piece of shit (no, they never called me that, but that doesn’t stop me from feeling like it).

Thanks, it really sucks. I didn’t expect the reaction I got. I kinda expected my dad to be the one who got upset while my mom was supportive, not the opposite. My dad was the one who had two sisters and only nieces on his side of the family, so I kinda expected he was gonna be the one upset by it; but he’s cool with it.

It also blew me away to hear that my grandparents voted for Trump after years of talking about how much they regretted voting for him in 2016 and how they’d never vote for him again. Guess I’m never coming out to them; not that I was totally expecting to due to their age, but it’ll be fun coming up with a reason why moving out means I’m forced to move across the country and possibly never come back (at least probably not while they’re still living).

I’ve been eyeing a DP12. Probably complete overkill but at the same time, if someone comes knocking down my door then I want to be able to erase them with extreme prejudice if I have to.

sends hugs

DFW area here. Shit sucks. At least it’s pretty blue here.

Pretty shit. Came out of the closet as trans to my parents just before the election after hiding dysphoria for nearly 20yrs (I’m 30). Unfortunately, the dysphoria has been intense enough that I’m so dissociated that I can barely function, so as you might imagine, I’m currently living with parents.

My dad’s reaction was basically, “whoever the best you is, be that you”.

My mom’s reaction was “but you’re my son… I always wanted to have a brother and you’re kinda like that”.

Meanwhile my grandparents voted for Trump after saying they wouldn’t, and are now crying about it. Literally. My grandmother was in tears.

So my mom is also dealing with that, and possibly osteoporosis, which meant she said, “it’s gonna take time to process this”.

Then last night she told me that I wasn’t allowed to start hrt until I moved out.

She refuses to let me tell her why I can barely function. She refuses to let me describe what I’m going through. She says she “can’t handle it”, that “it’s not a top priority right now”, that she’s “trying to understand” why I’ve made this “choice” while also telling me things like “but I like you the way you are” and rejecting any information I send to her because she’d rather consult her friends that she “trusts more”.

She starts to have a panic attack whenever I try to talk to her about it and God forbid I tell her that she made a mistake because then I obviously hate her guts and want her to die. She’s literally accused me of that.

It hurts like hell but I don’t know how to get out of this situation. I don’t know how long it’ll take hrt and therapy to get me on my feet all while not having a job. All this while in Texas. I’m fucking scared.

Edit: I also kinda wonder if I was born intersex and that’s why my mom is freaking out. I’d think my dad would know and would say something, but idk. I’ve heard of times where one parent had an intersex kid “”“fixed”“” without the other parent knowing. It honestly might explain some shit if I was born intersex.

Because those animals are cool. You see the others you mentioned too, but you don’t see animals no one likes. It’s less soul searching and finding you are something else and more finding something cool and wanting to be like it.

I suppose. I mean, I think it goes a bit deeper than that; I legit feel incomplete if I think about my lack of tail or snout. It’s no where near as bad as gender dysphoria, I only notice it if I think about it (as opposed to a constant “buzz” in the back of my head like dysphoria) but it’s there. Like, some part of my brain decided that I’m supposed to have a tail and snout. Maybe it’s some crazy-ancient leftover that never got totally filtered out from when we did have tails and snouts?

I’m a transhumanist, i understand being just human is a negative.

I tend to self-id as a transhumanist more often than a therian. It depends on the crowd, but it seems easier to explain that I’m into the idea of body modification for the purpose of augmenting/extending existing abilities, granting new abilities, or changing appearance based on personal taste; than the fact that my brain swings between seeing myself as an extinct theropod (an androgynous, feathered troodontid of mysterious gender with mossy-looking feathers; aka “Mossy Feathers”) to a wholly mythological creature (a very obviously fem dragon/dragon-hybrid who’s appearance I’m still trying to work out).

I may or may not have seen a comic demonstrating how enough pool toy… interaction… can affect buoyancy 👀

Joking aside though, they’re literally just pool toys except magically alive, so they just float like a normal pool toy.

How does that even happen? I know exactly the feelings you’re talking about, I think; but just… how did our brains decide being human just wasn’t who we are? Like, what the fuck lol.

Edit: also, why are so many therians foxes, dogs or wolves? I’m not sure I’ve ever seen bird, feline, lizard or other therians.

That is exactly what was going through my head, Mossy! Well, kinda. The other part is being like, “look, this may be a kink or fetish, but there’s plenty of sfw stuff; you don’t have to think it’s weird just because sex makes you uncomfy”. It sucks when people assume something you’re into is purely sexual because then social taboos kick in and you can’t talk about it anymore.

Imagine if you really liked plushies, enough so that you have a “plushsona”. You’re not into the sexual side of it, you just really, really like plushies, and you like telling people about the different names and personalities of your plushies. At some point someone gets it into their head that you’re actually aroused by your plushies and that you might even fuck them at night. Now everyone thinks it’s a fetish and no one wants to talk about your “”“perverted interests”“” anymore.

That’s why. That kinda shit sucks.

Edit: it feels kinda weird to admit this, but I honestly, unironically like furry porn for the artistic aspect of it. Sure, it makes me horny, but that’s not why I like it. If I wanted something to just get off to, AI has gotten good enough that I’m sure I could generate something that’d strike my fancy.

But that’s not why I enjoy it. I like the fact that you can see that, while cartoonish, stylized and hand-drawn, these are pictures of real people sharing real moments of intimacy with each other. The emotions, interactions, and so forth feel way more candid and vivid than anything else I’ve seen. You can tell that these characters all have their own back stories based on their designs, the way they carry themselves, the way they interact with one another, the words they use, the clothes they wear (or don’t wear), and so forth. They’re more real.

I don’t get that feeling from traditional pornography, hentai or rule34 stuff. It just doesn’t have the same… something.

That’s also why I don’t think furry artists need to be concerned with generative AI either. I’ve seen enough of both, and even though a lot of the AI stuff I’ve seen is probably good enough to fool 90% of skeptics while also being more photorealistic than most artists are probably capable of, yet I still vastly prefer human furry-made stuff. AI’s just eye-candy. It doesn’t have the same level of love and care put into it as most non-ai stuff.

I think it’s gonna get a lot worse, but if we can hold it together then it’ll be smooth sailing afterwards. Basically, I think we’re approaching several “Great Filters” and if we can get past them then we’ll be good.

Good point. I don’t tend to have order:(whatever) because I like seeing whatever new pops up. I forgot about e926.

Edit: forgot a word.

Basically that, lol. That said, the general vibe I’ve gotten from seeing plushie or pool toy art is that it’s less about mindless sex (compared to drone or doll transformation) and more about filling some other emotional need in a mindless manner; like mindless comfort or relaxation. I mean, there absolutely is a sex side to it (I’ve seen that art too), but my impression is that they aren’t centered around it.

Here, the pool toy furs are kinda cute. I’m personally not into it as a kink, but they’re cute

Edit: add “order:score” or “order:favcount” to the search terms (for an example, “pool_toy rating:safe order:score”) if you want to sort by total score or number of times favorited. replaced e621 link with e926 so you can’t accidentally disable the SFW filter (just replace e926 with e621 in the URL if you want the naughty pics). Also added “animate_inanimate” and “order:favcount”. The latter can be replaced with “order:score” if you’d prefer to filter by user score.