hmm I will try and host a subplebbit on my minipc and see if anyone actually uses it, feel free to DM me to get the address of the subplebbit :)

I am male, does it affect more male or something?

No, I can’t swim.

When I said “afraid” it doesn’t mean that I can’t touch or drink water. It just like when I try to bath I start thinking about how I can be drowned in water. so basically I am only afraid of water when it comes to bathing. also I can’t wash my face because that triggers the same thing :(

Thank you so much for those kind words. ❤️❤️❤️

So the “delusion of reference” is I feel like everyone is looking at me (not in a good way but like judging kind of way). To explain this a bit more I want to share an observation made by my father. He knows that I have “delusion of reference”. I was standing in his shop beside him and I didn’t know he was observing me. After some time he told me that he noticed a thing, I was continuously checking if those customers were looking at me or not. He was right I was periodically looking at the customer because I thought they are looking at me.

However since when I started taking medicines I am not feeling that way as much as I used to. I still sometimes feels that people are looking at me but it’s not that bad.

If you want to know more about my situation I have wrote almost everything in @schizophrenia@lemmy.ca community.

Thank you for reading this 😊

Persecution for me is like everyone has malicious motive and they are only being nice to me because they want something from me. I sometimes doubt my father hates me because he accidentally turned off the power switch of my server.

Now I know not everyone is against me they have better things to do with their lives but I still feel inside me that someone wants to do something to me.

I don’t know if it even makes any sense to you but that’s how I feel.

“Starting forth” the best book to learn about forth or programming in general

I think it’s Gruvbox but I could be wrong

ohh nice!

I don’t know, could you explain please

Yeah I am behind CGNAT so I guess I have to use either Tailscale or wireguard as other users also suggested.

Thank you for the reply!

It’s not only not static It’s firewalled too! I can’t ping it from outside the network

tailscale is looking good I might try that

actually I was thinking about hosting my own fediverse service to own my data but I can’t do that without a static public IP and domain name.

From your post I can say you have delusion of persecution which is a symptom of schizophrenia. You might need professional help if whatever you wrote here is actually how you feel.

yeah but there could be algorithm that runs locally I don’t see problem with that

Thank you so much for providing these links, I will read it all.

oh I didn’t know it, thank you so much for correcting me! =)

Looks very cool😎👍

It’s… weird, did you do something that accidentally deleted firefox?

Thanks for sharing, I am 21 years old.

You symptoms could still be manifesting if you’re young enough.

I hope this is not true, I don’t want to be like we see on movies.